fandom weekly { 2021 } entry tracking part 3

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Fandom Weekly part the third.

101 and we all lose our charms in the end | leverage | 617 **SECOND PLACE**

102 the choice is yours | dctv | 698

103 we got fun and games | original | 830

104 i've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed | leverage | 1,000 **FIRST PLACE**

105 never shall we die | original | 553 **FIRST PLACE**

106 harder better faster stronger | original | 971 **AMNESTY**

107 give me all of your prayers to sing | tvdverse | 929

108 it's who we're doing them with | original | 861 **AMNESTY**

109 friends are like an old shirt that always makes you smile | dctv | 879 **WINNER**

110 take a look, it's in a book | tvdverse | 997 **SECOND PLACE**
- - - AMNESTY - - -

111 wouldn't you like to see something strange? | tvdverse | 756 **WINNER**

112 let me know if you're really a dream | uncharted | 760 **AMNESTY**

113 winter wonderlands weren't made for one | tvdverse | 934 **AMNESTY**

114 you love how i keep you guessing | teen wolf | 942 **AMNESTY**

115 speak up, take a stand | dctv | 911 **AMNESTY**

116 stay alive until this horror show has passed | teen wolf | 842 **AMNESTY**

117 it's love that makes me walk way | everyone lives | 960 **AMNESTY**

118 and i'll be you | tvdverse | 898 **AMNESTY**

119 i hear your heart beat to the beat of the drum | teen wolf | 981 **AMNESTY**

120 there's no rescuing now because you're falling apart | dctv | 996 **AMNESTY**
- - - AMNESTY - - -

121 stuck in the real world, nothing comes free | original | 979 **FIRST PLACE**

122 i couldn't compete with the spell you were under | tvdverse | 561 **AMNESTY**

123 let my heart be the teacher | the magicians | 589 **AMNESTY**

124 you better trust me when i tell you | suits | 729 **AMNESTY**

125 say the word and i'm already there | teen wolf | 832 **AMNESTY**

126 the wheel is spinning me | marvel cinematic universe | 1,000 **THIRD PLACE**

127 it all started with a big bang | dctv | 667 **AMNESTY**

128 am i past repair? | tvdverse | 910 **AMNESTY**

129 it was lost long ago | dctv | 982 **AMNESTY**

130 and for you, darling, i'll hang the moon | teen wolf | 967
- - - AMNESTY - - -

131 i would never fall unless it's you i fall into | izombie | 680 **AMNESTY**

132 this is the life that we choose | dctv | 996 **AMNESTY**

133 no porch light on to pull me home | supernatural/tvdverse | 866 **AMNESTY**

134 i'll pretend my ship's not sinking | original | 607 **AMNESTY**

135 does the fun ever start? | tvdverse | 972 **AMNESTY**

136 play me time and time again | original | 997 **AMNESTY**

137 when i closed my eyes, i was so surprised | original | 765 **AMNESTY**

138 and the journey's been so rough | original | 935 **AMNESTY**

139 you think you're on your way | original | 840 **AMNESTY**

140 now the pain has cut too deep | original | 840 **AMNESTY**
- - - AMNESTY - - -

141 it's some kind of secret plot | wynonna earp | 710 **AMNESTY**

142 we could steal time just for one day | marvel cinematic universe | 824 **AMNESTY**

143 the dream is over | dctv | 990 **AMNESTY**

144 i'm a porsche with no brakes | marvel cinematic universe | 979 **AMNESTY**

145 tempted but the truth is discovered | leverage | 538 **SECOND PLACE**

146 your faith was strong but you needed proof | white collar/leverage | 984 **SECOND PLACE**

147 this time did it feel like thunder | wynonna earp | 753

148 this is one unhappy diva | original | 994

149 no medicine to procure | dctv | 821

150 it's just a jump to the left | paper girls | 998
- - - AMNESTY - - -

151 some things are meant to be wynonna earp | 882 **AMNESTY**

152 such a lonely word | supernatural | 683 **AMNESTY**

153 i breathe in on the tick and out on the tock | dc extended universe | 1,000 **AMNESTY**

154 just searching for a world with some soul | the umbrella academy | 630 **AMNESTY**

155 the past was much more fun | tvdverse/teen wolf | 942 **AMNESTY**

156 it took so long to leave | original | 560 **AMNESTY**

157 when you feel so tired but you can't sleep | tvdverse | 826 **AMNESTY**

158 had to get away | original | 642 **AMNESTY**

159 pressed between the pages of my mind | tvdverse | 542 **AMNESTY**

160 i've come to you 'cause i need guidance to be true | haven | 925
- - - AMNESTY - - -

161 if you still have a place for me | haven | 968

162 i'm not gonna stand here and wait | original | 632 **FIRST PLACE**

163 you say it's your birthday | original | 655 **THIRD PLACE**

164 i made this whole world shine for you | tvdverse | 709

165 what do i do when lightning strikes me? | tvdverse | 741 **THIRD PLACE**

166 the loneliest number that you'll ever know | teen wolf | 998

167 i know you've got your reasons | leverage | 830 **RUNNER UP**

168 maybe you've been watching me too | original | 915 **SECOND PLACE**

169 you can read me anything | original | 713 **THIRD PLACE**

170 oops there goes another rubber tree plant | original | 613 **THIRD PLACE**
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171 and you better come to play | the umbrella academy/marvel cinematic universe | 778 **RUNNER UP**

172 but you were history with the slamming of the door | dctv | 659 **RUNNER UP**

173 you got nothing to do and even less to lose | leverage | 721 **FIRST PLACE**

174 you got your head in the clouds | the umbrella academy | 662 **AMNESTY**

175 and i wish that love could save us | original | 846 **SECOND PLACE**

176 gravity is pulling me closer to your heavenly body | leverage | 713 **AMNESTY**

177 that you may be my problem not my love | original | 995

178 but your apathy is like a wound in salt | original | 798

179 they're calling you a fool | original | 845

180 careful what you wish for | original | 555 **FIRST PLACE**
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181 i can't be trusted around you | original | 667

182 you're just harder to see than most | original | 881 **FIRST PLACE**

183 send out the call and join the fray | original | 949 **AMNESTY**

184 gonna lure you into the dark | tvdverse | 706 **AMNESTY**

185 and i'm damned if i do and damned if i don't | tvdverse | 859 **AMNESTY**

186 won't you let me in? | tvdverse | 761 **AMNESTY**

187 you were only killing time and it'll kill you right back | teen wolf | 825 **AMNESTY**

188 say the world and i'm already there | tvdverse/teen wolf | 912 **AMNESTY**

189 let's not wait for armageddon | original | 607 **AMNESTY**

190 i can't think of what else i need to see | tvdverse | 780 **AMNESTY**
- - - AMNESTY - - -

191 as clear as the sun in the summer sky | marvel cinematic universe | 840

192 are you ready to watch me be legendary? | original | 585 **WINNER**

193 somebody's judgement was poor | original | 888

Part 2
Running Word Count: 73,858 words

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#140 ~ now the pain has cut to deep ~ original ~ 840

[iluvroadrunner6]

I should have known this wedding would not be the release I wanted it to be.

On paper, it looks like exactly what I need. A family wedding of a friend, where I don’t know anyone and could just relax and have fun. Caroline offers me the invitation and I jump at it. Between residency, my lack of a personal life because of being a first-year medical resident, and the general state of my life, I am ready to put on a pretty dress, dance and have a few drinks with people who I don’t know, don’t have to impress, and will probably never see again.

Win-win, right?

Wrong.

I realize my dangerous mistake the second my eyes land on the best man at the ceremony. Carter Bowland. My high school boyfriend who unceremoniously dumped me as we were getting ready to leave for college, aka the guy who broke my heart and crushed my soul. It’s almost as though it forces the wind from my sails the second I see him as all those terrible feelings bubble back up to the surface.

I promptly put myself in the section related to the bride and keep my head down. Hide behind a woman wearing an obnoxiously enormous hat, and hope that he doesn’t see me.

It’s not that I want to make things awkward, or that I haven’t moved on. I have. Several times, in fact. But how Carter and I left things still stings, in a way that I’ve never been able to shake. It’s frustrating, because I should be beyond this. I am a confident, competent professional. I fix people for a living. People put their lives in my hands, and the idea of confronting my high school boyfriend makes me feel like there’s a rock sitting in the pit of my stomach.

I hate the way he instantly makes me feel two feet tall.

But I can do this. This isn’t about me, this is about Caroline and me being a first-rate wedding guest. So I suck it up, pull my shoulders back, and pretend I didn’t see him. This will be fine.

This will be fine.

Apparently I’m not as great at projecting “fine” as I think, because the second Caroline sits down next to me, she raises an eyebrow. “Why are we hiding behind Aunt Midge’s massive hat?”

I take a deep breath, keeping my voice low. This is my best friend. She can handle it. “So remember that boyfriend I told you about? From high school?”

“Mr. I think we would both have better college experiences if we were single? Yeah, what a douche.”

“He’s the best man.”

Caroline’s mouth drops comically large, and she peers around Aunt Midge to get a better look. “That’s him?”

“Yep.”

There’s a long, contemplative silence before she shrugs. “I thought he would be taller.”

I look over at her gratefully. “I love you.”

“Do you want me to shun him all night? Because I am an A-plus shunner.”

“I know you are, but no. It was high school, right? I’m over it. And he probably doesn’t even remember me.”

“Kara.”

Somehow, I miss him leaving the rest of the bridal party and leaning over the pew to meet her eyes. “Carter. Hi. Oh my god, you’re here.”

“Yeah, I’m the best man. I didn’t know you knew the bride.”

God, he’s so handsome. This is so unfair. Come on, Kara, think with your upstairs brain. You learned the lesson of him a long time ago, and you know the way he’s looking at you now means he’s expecting nostalgic wedding sex and nothing more.

“I don’t. I’m a plus one.”

“Yes,” Caroline pipes up before draping an arm around my shoulders. “My plus one.”

Carter glances between the two of us, eyes widening in surprise before something clicks. “Oh. Oh, that’s great. I didn’t realize. Good … good for you.”

I immediately relax into the hold and smile. “Yeah. But wow, great to see you. It’s been a long time. Maybe we can catch up later.”

“Yeah.” He seems a lot less enthused than he was previously, which makes me think he definitely thought he could con me into getting laid. “Yeah, that sounds great.”

“Great.” The organ starts up at the front of the church, and I nod towards it. “Sounds like that’s your cue.”

“Oh, right.” He waves as he heads back to the front of the church. “See you at the reception.”

He disappears, and I relax, glancing over to Caroline again. “Thank you.”

“What are best friends for, if not for making evil exes think you’re into girls now?”

It’s not inaccurate either. I am bi. But if he thinks I don’t bat for the same team anymore, all the better. The large hat shifts next to us, and Aunt Midge places a hand on my leg.

“You really dodged a bullet, my dear. I never liked that boy.”

I can’t help but laugh as I nod. “Me either, Aunt Midge. Me either.”