iluvroadrunner6 | fandom weekly { 2021 } entry tracking part 3

Fandom Weekly part the third.

101 and we all lose our charms in the end | leverage | 617 **SECOND PLACE**
102 the choice is yours | dctv | 698
103 we got fun and games | original | 830
104 i've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed | leverage | 1,000 **FIRST PLACE**
105 never shall we die | original | 553 **FIRST PLACE**
106 harder better faster stronger | original | 971 **AMNESTY**
107 give me all of your prayers to sing | tvdverse | 929
108 it's who we're doing them with | original | 861 **AMNESTY**
109 friends are like an old shirt that always makes you smile | dctv | 879 **WINNER**
110 take a look, it's in a book | tvdverse | 997 **SECOND PLACE**
- - - AMNESTY - - -
111 wouldn't you like to see something strange? | tvdverse | 756 **WINNER**
112 let me know if you're really a dream | uncharted | 760 **AMNESTY**
113 winter wonderlands weren't made for one | tvdverse | 934 **AMNESTY**
114 you love how i keep you guessing | teen wolf | 942 **AMNESTY**
115 speak up, take a stand | dctv | 911 **AMNESTY**
116 stay alive until this horror show has passed | teen wolf | 842 **AMNESTY**
117 it's love that makes me walk way | everyone lives | 960 **AMNESTY**
118 and i'll be you | tvdverse | 898 **AMNESTY**
119 i hear your heart beat to the beat of the drum | teen wolf | 981 **AMNESTY**
120 there's no rescuing now because you're falling apart | dctv | 996 **AMNESTY**
- - - AMNESTY - - -
121 stuck in the real world, nothing comes free | original | 979 **FIRST PLACE**
122 i couldn't compete with the spell you were under | tvdverse | 561 **AMNESTY**
123 let my heart be the teacher | the magicians | 589 **AMNESTY**
124 you better trust me when i tell you | suits | 729 **AMNESTY**
125 say the word and i'm already there | teen wolf | 832 **AMNESTY**
126 the wheel is spinning me | marvel cinematic universe | 1,000 **THIRD PLACE**
127 it all started with a big bang | dctv | 667 **AMNESTY**
128 am i past repair? | tvdverse | 910 **AMNESTY**
129 it was lost long ago | dctv | 982 **AMNESTY**
130 and for you, darling, i'll hang the moon | teen wolf | 967
- - - AMNESTY - - -
131 i would never fall unless it's you i fall into | izombie | 680 **AMNESTY**
132 this is the life that we choose | dctv | 996 **AMNESTY**
133 no porch light on to pull me home | supernatural/tvdverse | 866 **AMNESTY**
134 i'll pretend my ship's not sinking | original | 607 **AMNESTY**
135 does the fun ever start? | tvdverse | 972 **AMNESTY**
136 play me time and time again | original | 997 **AMNESTY**
137 when i closed my eyes, i was so surprised | original | 765 **AMNESTY**
138 and the journey's been so rough | original | 935 **AMNESTY**
139 you think you're on your way | original | 840 **AMNESTY**
140 now the pain has cut too deep | original | 840 **AMNESTY**
- - - AMNESTY - - -
141 it's some kind of secret plot | wynonna earp | 710 **AMNESTY**
142 we could steal time just for one day | marvel cinematic universe | 824 **AMNESTY**
143 the dream is over | dctv | 990 **AMNESTY**
144 i'm a porsche with no brakes | marvel cinematic universe | 979 **AMNESTY**
145 tempted but the truth is discovered | leverage | 538 **SECOND PLACE**
146 your faith was strong but you needed proof | white collar/leverage | 984 **SECOND PLACE**
147 this time did it feel like thunder | wynonna earp | 753
148 this is one unhappy diva | original | 994
149 no medicine to procure | dctv | 821
150 it's just a jump to the left | paper girls | 998
- - - AMNESTY - - -
151 some things are meant to be wynonna earp | 882 **AMNESTY**
152 such a lonely word | supernatural | 683 **AMNESTY**
153 i breathe in on the tick and out on the tock | dc extended universe | 1,000 **AMNESTY**
154 just searching for a world with some soul | the umbrella academy | 630 **AMNESTY**
155 the past was much more fun | tvdverse/teen wolf | 942 **AMNESTY**
156 it took so long to leave | original | 560 **AMNESTY**
157 when you feel so tired but you can't sleep | tvdverse | 826 **AMNESTY**
158 had to get away | original | 642 **AMNESTY**
159 pressed between the pages of my mind | tvdverse | 542 **AMNESTY**
160 i've come to you 'cause i need guidance to be true | haven | 925
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161 if you still have a place for me | haven | 968
162 i'm not gonna stand here and wait | original | 632 **FIRST PLACE**
163 you say it's your birthday | original | 655 **THIRD PLACE**
164 i made this whole world shine for you | tvdverse | 709
165 what do i do when lightning strikes me? | tvdverse | 741 **THIRD PLACE**
166 the loneliest number that you'll ever know | teen wolf | 998
167 i know you've got your reasons | leverage | 830 **RUNNER UP**
168 maybe you've been watching me too | original | 915 **SECOND PLACE**
169 you can read me anything | original | 713 **THIRD PLACE**
170 oops there goes another rubber tree plant | original | 613 **THIRD PLACE**
- - - AMNESTY - - -
171 and you better come to play | the umbrella academy/marvel cinematic universe | 778 **RUNNER UP**
172 but you were history with the slamming of the door | dctv | 659 **RUNNER UP**
173 you got nothing to do and even less to lose | leverage | 721 **FIRST PLACE**
174 you got your head in the clouds | the umbrella academy | 662 **AMNESTY**
175 and i wish that love could save us | original | 846 **SECOND PLACE**
176 gravity is pulling me closer to your heavenly body | leverage | 713 **AMNESTY**
177 that you may be my problem not my love | original | 995
178 but your apathy is like a wound in salt | original | 798
179 they're calling you a fool | original | 845
180 careful what you wish for | original | 555 **FIRST PLACE**
- - - AMNESTY - - -
181 i can't be trusted around you | original | 667
182 you're just harder to see than most | original | 881 **FIRST PLACE**
183 send out the call and join the fray | original | 949 **AMNESTY**
184 gonna lure you into the dark | tvdverse | 706 **AMNESTY**
185 and i'm damned if i do and damned if i don't | tvdverse | 859 **AMNESTY**
186 won't you let me in? | tvdverse | 761 **AMNESTY**
187 you were only killing time and it'll kill you right back | teen wolf | 825 **AMNESTY**
188 say the world and i'm already there | tvdverse/teen wolf | 912 **AMNESTY**
189 let's not wait for armageddon | original | 607 **AMNESTY**
190 i can't think of what else i need to see | tvdverse | 780 **AMNESTY**
- - - AMNESTY - - -
191 as clear as the sun in the summer sky | marvel cinematic universe | 840
192 are you ready to watch me be legendary? | original | 585 **WINNER**
193 somebody's judgement was poor | original | 888

Part 2
Running Word Count: 73,858 words

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Sprite bears the ability to craft the world in her image, though she can never keep it.

That’s the problem with illusions. They hang in the air with all their pretty pictures, visions of the way she wants the world to be, but living a life she can never have. She can never grow old, she can never touch or love the way she wants to be. In the eyes of the rest of the world, she will always be a child, whether or not she wants to be.

So she crafts elaborate fantasies. She lets them play across the ceiling of her room, the way her life would progress if she were no longer stuck. She deludes herself into thinking, for a little while, that maybe one day Arisham will have mercy on her, and she’ll get to live the life she wants. But that day never comes.

* * * * *

Sersi likes to pretend she’s one of them.

The lies come so easily after a while. Yes, she’s a totally normal human woman. Yes, she’s lived a completely normal human life. She gets to teach science and have a boyfriend and pretend like the weight of the world doesn’t rest on her shoulder for all the things she could change if she wasn’t bound to her cause.

Because with her hands tied, what would she do to a titan like Thanos? Turn him into a pile of flowers?

* * * * *

Thena is in control. Her broken mind doesn’t control her.

It’s an affirmation, she says to herself every day, that she steps out into the hut and into the blaring sunlight of the desert. She deludes herself into believing that today isn’t the day her delusions will take hold, and she’ll wind up killing the person she cares about most.

She moves to sit beneath her tree, viewing her pictures of rampant destruction and tries to decipher what her broken brain is trying to tell her. Solving the riddle might bring her one step closer.

Today, she stays focused enough that she doesn’t get triggered into uncontrollable violence. She decides that’s worth being called a good day.

* * * * *

Makkari gathers her collection and sits on her throne of trinkets, and hopes that one day she’ll be able to go home.

She watches as the years pass, trickling further and further into denial, waiting for the sign when her family would return to her and they’ll be off to another planet, to save another world. She hates sitting still, more than anything else, her fingers twitching and demanding that they take their next artifact, begin their next adventure, but she forces herself to stay still, and wait.

The call will come one day, won’t it?

* * * * *

Phastos finds joy again in a lie.

It takes decades for him to find something about humanity to connect with, something about them to believe that they were worth saving for all those millennia. He tries to pretend that they’re not flawed, that they won’t make things worse before they get better. He falls in love, lets himself be open again, and swears that he will never take up the life of an Eternal again.

But every so often, something lives in his workshop that just has to be tinkered with.

* * * * *

They can leave any time they want, Druig tells himself.

As he slips into their eyes, he says this. He uses their bodies to assess threats, defend themselves, defend him. He tells himself a pretty lie as he takes control of their bodies, holding them close and building a cult of personality under the guise that he’s protecting them. He isolates, manipulates, restricts.

He tells himself he’s better than any god they would ever follow. And it’s only in the shroud of darkness as they all slip away that he’ll occasionally acknowledge that he was wrong.

* * * * *

Gilgamesh wakes up in the morning and hopes that today isn’t the day Thena kills him.

He shouldn’t call what she becomes in her Mahd Wy'ry fits Thena. It’s so much easier to pretend that she’s someone else, not the woman he loves, not the person he’s watched fight for centuries with control and precision. She can’t be losing her mind. And he refuses to treat her like she is.

Should her mind break that illusion, he’ll change his tactics, but for now, it’s almost easier to pretend. He spends his life cooking for his love, and pretends that one day, she won’t drive her axe into his back.

* * * * *

Kingo creates illusions for a living.

Whether it’s pretending to be the different generations of the same man or playing a character on film, he gets to create an entire world all to himself where he’s the star. He sets himself as a main character, in a world where he’ll never be the lead.

One day, it will all be over, after all. Arisham will call them home, and he’ll have to start all over again. But for now—for now, he’s the star of the show. And for as long as it lasts, he’ll enjoy it.

* * * * *

Ajak shatters whatever illusions Ikaris can hold about himself, and somehow he shatters with it.

No Deviant ever delivered a blow strong enough to wound the way he feels the world crumble around him about what they expect to do. What they are required to do. He watches Sersi, the woman he loves more than this world, throw herself further into these people, somehow love them beyond how she loves even him, and knows that he cannot shatter her the way Ajak has destroyed him.

He knows he can’t be with her and lie to her. He knows he can’t tell her the truth, either.

All he can do is to hold fast to the idea that Arisham is always right, and keep that faith curled tight around him like a cape as he takes off into the sky, leaving the woman he loves behind.

fandom weekly { 2021 } entry tracking part 3

Part 2Running Word Count: 73,858 words

#126 ~ the wheel is spinning me ~ marvel cinematic universe ~ 1,000

Part 2
Running Word Count: 73,858 words