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iluvroadrunner6) wrote2009-05-18 02:31 pm
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Adam/Elle - Nothing Changes
Fandom: Heroes
Title: Nothing Changes
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iluvroadrunner6
Rating: PG-13 // FRT
Characters: Adam Monroe/Elle Bishop
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psych_30 Prompt: 2. Daddy Issues
Content Warning: N/A
Summary: Her shrink would have said it was a cry for attention.
Author's Note: Fordarkmagic_luvr who requested Elle for Virginity Meme. And this is way more psychological than sex-oriented, which is probably why it took me so long.
Disclaimer: I don't own the characters of Heroes. They're owned by NBC. However, all original characters are mine, so please do not borrow them without my permission.
Her shrink would have said it was a cry for attention.
Not that she would have told her shrink about the four hundred year-old man that her father kept in the basement, but he would have said the same either way. An old friend of her father’s that she’d been entertaining less than chaste thoughts about—it was such a cliché that screamed daddy issues and desperate for attention, but on some levels—she just didn’t care. It wasn’t a matter of attention from her father anymore. She wanted to say that it was for her, but she just wanted attention, period. And he wanted her, in some twisted, masochistic kind of way, and that only made it all the easier.
She didn’t know how she knew he wanted her. It wasn’t like she had a lot of experience with men outside the facility. In fact, if she happened to meet someone who didn’t know who’s daughter she was, she managed to scare them away with what she could do. She wouldn’t realize until later that a man who’s been deprived of gentle human contact for thirty years would take what he could get. For right now, though, she didn’t care. She knew about the video cameras in the room, she knew that Adam wanted her, and she knew that when her father saw it, she’d have more attention than she knew what to do with.
Fact of the matter was that it was an issue of trust. She was placing herself in the hands of the man she tortured. The man who wanted to do whatever it was to get back at the man who tormented him for thirty years. She should have no reason to trust him at all, and yet here she was, handing herself over. This wasn’t about sex, and this wasn’t about him—it was about her. Her, and what she needed, and what she wanted. And despite how she may have felt about him, on whatever level—she wanted him. That much was certain.
It was uncomfortable and awkward, and the need to evoke attention from a father who’d never given her any was quickly replaced by feelings of inadequacy. She was in over her head, and she knew it, but she was too far in this for her to turn back now. Adam Monroe, regardless of the fact that her power could incapacitate him in a moment, was a terrifying man and telling him no at this point was a dangerous idea. He seemed to sense her nerves however, and he adjusted accordingly. He was gentle, which was more than she deserved, and patient, which was more than she needed. In the end, the experience could have been much worse.
Then nothing changed.
Sure, she changed. She learned that you can’t do something like that, play with that kind of trust, and not change, but nothing else did. Her father acted as if he didn’t know that it had happened, which was a lie in and of itself. Not that she ever called him on it, but he knew. His father knew everything that happened in regards to Adam Monroe, so there was no way that he would have missed the fact that his only daughter was screwing him in the basement. And yet nothing changed. There was no reaction, not attention, nothing.
She was a fool for actually thinking that something would.
Title: Nothing Changes
Author:
iluvroadrunner6Rating: PG-13 // FRT
Characters: Adam Monroe/Elle Bishop
psych_30 Prompt: 2. Daddy IssuesContent Warning: N/A
Summary: Her shrink would have said it was a cry for attention.
Author's Note: For
darkmagic_luvr who requested Elle for Virginity Meme. And this is way more psychological than sex-oriented, which is probably why it took me so long.Disclaimer: I don't own the characters of Heroes. They're owned by NBC. However, all original characters are mine, so please do not borrow them without my permission.
Her shrink would have said it was a cry for attention.
Not that she would have told her shrink about the four hundred year-old man that her father kept in the basement, but he would have said the same either way. An old friend of her father’s that she’d been entertaining less than chaste thoughts about—it was such a cliché that screamed daddy issues and desperate for attention, but on some levels—she just didn’t care. It wasn’t a matter of attention from her father anymore. She wanted to say that it was for her, but she just wanted attention, period. And he wanted her, in some twisted, masochistic kind of way, and that only made it all the easier.
She didn’t know how she knew he wanted her. It wasn’t like she had a lot of experience with men outside the facility. In fact, if she happened to meet someone who didn’t know who’s daughter she was, she managed to scare them away with what she could do. She wouldn’t realize until later that a man who’s been deprived of gentle human contact for thirty years would take what he could get. For right now, though, she didn’t care. She knew about the video cameras in the room, she knew that Adam wanted her, and she knew that when her father saw it, she’d have more attention than she knew what to do with.
Fact of the matter was that it was an issue of trust. She was placing herself in the hands of the man she tortured. The man who wanted to do whatever it was to get back at the man who tormented him for thirty years. She should have no reason to trust him at all, and yet here she was, handing herself over. This wasn’t about sex, and this wasn’t about him—it was about her. Her, and what she needed, and what she wanted. And despite how she may have felt about him, on whatever level—she wanted him. That much was certain.
It was uncomfortable and awkward, and the need to evoke attention from a father who’d never given her any was quickly replaced by feelings of inadequacy. She was in over her head, and she knew it, but she was too far in this for her to turn back now. Adam Monroe, regardless of the fact that her power could incapacitate him in a moment, was a terrifying man and telling him no at this point was a dangerous idea. He seemed to sense her nerves however, and he adjusted accordingly. He was gentle, which was more than she deserved, and patient, which was more than she needed. In the end, the experience could have been much worse.
Then nothing changed.
Sure, she changed. She learned that you can’t do something like that, play with that kind of trust, and not change, but nothing else did. Her father acted as if he didn’t know that it had happened, which was a lie in and of itself. Not that she ever called him on it, but he knew. His father knew everything that happened in regards to Adam Monroe, so there was no way that he would have missed the fact that his only daughter was screwing him in the basement. And yet nothing changed. There was no reaction, not attention, nothing.
She was a fool for actually thinking that something would.